come home

1/5/2010

"come home"

i think it would be best
to hold all this in my chest
realizing that day
when it comes this way
to run the other direction
cause I'm tired of this reflection
i don't want you to see
who i am coming to be
since you been gone
too many problems have been going on
i know you want me to crack
but I'm too far gone to come back
I'm not blaming you
but this is what i view
I'm not the same
your not to blame
so try to miss
cause i never had a perfect bliss
i always pretend
till i reach the end
i know i might have to restart
the friendship we had in heart
but I'm just digging more
like the time before
cause I'm afraid
that i will fade
not knowing who i am
not giving a damn
but with this place
I'm scared to see your face
with the reaction I'm going to find
that be playing over in my mind
i know you understand
but my feelings don't expand
not like they used too
and these words are true
i don't know how long
for me to become strong
cause I'm broken and weak
this is why i don't want to speak
cause i know i will fall
that's why i never call
i don't want you to hear
my voice with fear
i don't want to fall to the ground
for you hear the sound
of me crying
to see me dying
i know you want to heal
so i can feel
but it's too late
but i know you will wait
cause that's who you are
even if i have too my scars
i know you want to protect
but i don't want to reflect
this hurtful words
even though you already heard
i can't make it
i want to commit
this pain is too much
hurtful to touch
but i know you want me
to set me free
but i surrender
i can't render
yet i know
your going to show
what i need to see through my eyes
and break my disguise
that I'm trying to hold
even though i don't want to unfold
but when that day comes
what will this become